It's the night before my friend is having her first chemo treatment. She is sleeping downstairs. I am upstairs - feeling woefully unprepared for tomorrow. In the past year, we have become closer than almost any other relationship I have in my life. First, her husband died suddenly. Then I had a horrible miscarriage, not to mention a few other crappy things that will remain anonymous, and now this.
Here is how I feel right now: Anxious. Nervous that I won't know the right things to do or say. Scared that I am too selfish and won't do as much as I could or should. And just sad. So sad that she has to deal with so much at one time in her life.
There really isn't much out there about how to care for your friend that has cancer. I feel totally unprepared for what is ahead of us. I'm much better when I know what to expect from a situation. I can control it that way.
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